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[kiya]

I don't even know.

It's not the pain, or at least not just the pain; I've gotten enough sleep the last couple of days that I've been mostly managing that.

The fact that KJ is responding to FM's arrival with a standard sibling regression that is manifesting almost entirely in wanting to nurse constantly is part of it.

I am a tangled-up mess of complicated, and dealing with people is even more complicated.

I seriously spent the afternoon sitting in a dark room because it was the most calming thing I could come up with to do. "Turn your thoughts away from cold, unfeeling light."

I don't even know if I make any damn sense. I'm too tired to cry.

Comments

[luellon.livejournal.com]

*hugs* May Sekhmet help you during this ordeal.

Lighting a candle for you.

*hugs*

[arienaru.livejournal.com]

Prolonged sleep dep is solidly in the "this will kill you" category.

One of the reasons that's true is that coming out of it, those few days of sufficient sleep that get your brain back to doing something that could be described as functioning, are worse than being at the bottom of the curve.

If KJ's more than 2, you can perfectly well start telling her no, too. And, if at all possible, taking days off family so you can do the necessary personal maintenance. (If it's necessary, it's necessary. No moral question pertains.)

[ardaniel]

Lack of sleep is a reliable means of horking off your neurology such that light is bad and every other stimulus is too much to bear. Even with migraines, chemical menopause, and an anxiety disorder, my docs all ask about sleep before any meds changes or other guidance gets issued. Any meds stuff invariably slants towards "you need more restful sleep."

Some of the chronic pain disorders are linked with sleep that does not actually provide useful rest, too; REM disruption is common with fibromyalgia, for instance.

[sashajwolf.livejournal.com]

You make sense, and sometimes a dark room is exactly what's called for. Thinking of you.

[meranthi.livejournal.com]

*HUGHUG* I wish I had some pithy, useful advice, but I got nothing. Thinking of you. *HUG*

[ivy]

Sympathy. Sometimes dark is comforting. I hope it gets better for you soon.

[hawlla.livejournal.com]

Perhaps, you should consider talking to someone who is not in your household.