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I don't even know.
It's not the pain, or at least not just the pain; I've gotten enough sleep the last couple of days that I've been mostly managing that.
The fact that KJ is responding to FM's arrival with a standard sibling regression that is manifesting almost entirely in wanting to nurse constantly is part of it.
I am a tangled-up mess of complicated, and dealing with people is even more complicated.
I seriously spent the afternoon sitting in a dark room because it was the most calming thing I could come up with to do. "Turn your thoughts away from cold, unfeeling light."
I don't even know if I make any damn sense. I'm too tired to cry.
It's not the pain, or at least not just the pain; I've gotten enough sleep the last couple of days that I've been mostly managing that.
The fact that KJ is responding to FM's arrival with a standard sibling regression that is manifesting almost entirely in wanting to nurse constantly is part of it.
I am a tangled-up mess of complicated, and dealing with people is even more complicated.
I seriously spent the afternoon sitting in a dark room because it was the most calming thing I could come up with to do. "Turn your thoughts away from cold, unfeeling light."
I don't even know if I make any damn sense. I'm too tired to cry.
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One of the reasons that's true is that coming out of it, those few days of sufficient sleep that get your brain back to doing something that could be described as functioning, are worse than being at the bottom of the curve.
If KJ's more than 2, you can perfectly well start telling her no, too. And, if at all possible, taking days off family so you can do the necessary personal maintenance. (If it's necessary, it's necessary. No moral question pertains.)