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I'm not overly sure what to write about, honestly. We're still here; KJ's still here. She's been a bit fountainy the last day or so, so maybe a little reflux. No distress, so probably not a stomach bug, just small targetting messes, generally when ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
whispercricket picks her up.
My father's up visiting.
I am ... complicated, emotionally, right now, with the full force of all of this. She is a wonderful force, a glorious joy, and completely draining; I barely feel entirely real right now. Which is ... messy, with the depressive tendencies. I'm maybe approaching recovered from the birth; maybe maybe. Bleeding has slowed again. (It did this once before, I did garden work, and promptly started bleeding again. Phooey to that.)
She is holding up her head fairly consistently now when sitting up, though her gross movements are still not entirely under her control. She has not yet successfully pried her ear off, but not for lack of trying.
Also, baby icon exists. See?
whispercricket picks her up.My father's up visiting.
I am ... complicated, emotionally, right now, with the full force of all of this. She is a wonderful force, a glorious joy, and completely draining; I barely feel entirely real right now. Which is ... messy, with the depressive tendencies. I'm maybe approaching recovered from the birth; maybe maybe. Bleeding has slowed again. (It did this once before, I did garden work, and promptly started bleeding again. Phooey to that.)
She is holding up her head fairly consistently now when sitting up, though her gross movements are still not entirely under her control. She has not yet successfully pried her ear off, but not for lack of trying.
Also, baby icon exists. See?
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At the point where you start to get a handle on that, she will change, and you will have new complicated emotions to tangle with.
This stage lasts about three years. After that, you regain something like stability. It will be a different flavor of stability from what you knew before KJ. Parents will recognize the difference; non-parents will occasionally give you odd blank stares or uncomfortable frozen smiles.
(Bleeding is going okay? Your med-techie people are not concerned? I had bleeding for less than two weeks, both times, and it was never worse than a really bad period. Had friends who had bleeding issues for a couple of months & had to take weird nutritional supplements & other meds to stop losing iron.)
Is good baby icon.
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I remember feeling when I was having B that the boundaries of my personhood were dissolving - not in a bad way, but still in a way that would have made functioning difficult if it hadn't receded. Fortunately it did, eventually. Or perhaps "washed over me" is better than receded, because it certainly didn't leave me unchanged. In the long run, I think it left me more stable, but it sure didn't feel that way while it was happening.
Which is to say, I think this is all within the range of normal, and probably okay, and likely to pass :-)
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FWIW: Week 6 was really hard for me emotionally. You are totally normal in this regard. Also, I bled until about week 8/9. I'm finally done!
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She's got a lovely dark head of hair there.
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I hope your health keeps improving.