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. . . really, really . . . something . . . .
About feeling that one has a life that goes in broad, repeating patterns, later ones being more so than previous ones . . . .
And realizing that the places that things are ripping apart and dissolving right about now have a parallel back at the beginning (This is where we got the job, so this is. . . the beginning) in a relationship that . . . ended very badly . . . and which I only actually got over at the point at which I started the relationship that's . . . currently . . .
. . .
Addendum: eaten half a bowl of cereal without having the emotional distress surges that make me try throwing it back up. need to take vitamins. throwing things at the CD changer. current mood: numb.
About feeling that one has a life that goes in broad, repeating patterns, later ones being more so than previous ones . . . .
And realizing that the places that things are ripping apart and dissolving right about now have a parallel back at the beginning (This is where we got the job, so this is. . . the beginning) in a relationship that . . . ended very badly . . . and which I only actually got over at the point at which I started the relationship that's . . . currently . . .
. . .
Addendum: eaten half a bowl of cereal without having the emotional distress surges that make me try throwing it back up. need to take vitamins. throwing things at the CD changer. current mood: numb.
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(What it's about is feeling like a relationship is falling apart in a way I've seen happen before, and dealing with the angst and hopeless . . . inevitability that comes of that for me. Knowing the tune, not knowing how to modulate it into a different key. . .)