Cranky birdie.

[kiya]

Internet b0rken now six hours. I would be more encouraged by their 'we think we'll have it fixed in four hours' thing if there wasn't an outage in Quincy too (not yet done, earlier timing, projected time to fix: four hours) which is probably consuming a certain fraction of the region's available engineers.

Took the colorquiz test thing again, and am feeling crankily amused by things like: "Depleted vitality has created an intolerance for any further stimulation, or demands on her resources. A feeling of powerlessness subjects her to agitation, irritation, and acute distress from which she tries to escape by refusing further direct participation. She confines herself to a cautious approach and a concealed determination to get her own way in the end." Nooooooo, really? Also, I'm overloaded, insecure, feel helpless, and need reassurance that I'm loved and can count on security and stability.

ibnfirnas and keshwyn have had thoughts about more ritual/magical work that might help me out. Need to ponder at the details a bit. Very good idea, but needs to be handled with care.

Tangentially, though, why do I have an impulse to offer gingersnaps to Wesir? Not that I object to the notion in the slightest, I like gingersnaps and I should offer Him something these days . . . . Will see how complicated that is to do or whether I should put off full-moon ritual until tomorrow so I have prep time.

Given that I doubt non-annoying internet will be restored any time soon, I will likely stop with the slow and flaky connection when I go off to do ritual (if I manage cookies tonight) and see if it's fixed tomorrow.

Still can't concentrate worth a damn.

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[whispercricket]

*hug*

I was going to offer possible net access later if yours didn't come back (and if you wanted to leave the house), but it seems that may not be a problem anymore. :)

*not quite sure how or what to say, but want to say something*

I specifically put aside talking about anything with arawen that wasn't mundane and project-focused or extremely trivial because he was so stressed and overwhelmed that he had no brain left, and I didn't want to add anything more. It's an extremely difficult thing to do, to make something important wait, even for a much shorter span of time than I think you're dealing with, and even without having a big pending issue waiting at the other side. *sympathy*

I...don't know if you want concrete suggestions or offers of help, or just to be able to let a little of the stress out? (Because I could maybe try to help with the psych thing or the house thing - especially the house thing - if it would help take some of the pressure off.) Seriously, if there's anything I can do to help (listen - with or without suggestions, make approving comments at your shiny WoW characters, have you be cranky at me if you want help moving stuff around to prep the house for showing and I move things to the wrong place, whatever), I would be...extremely happy? Honored? Something?

*hug* I care about you, and I send you hope, because I believe in you, and believe that you will be able to find your way, even though it's not easy.