Cranky birdie.

[kiya]

Internet b0rken now six hours. I would be more encouraged by their 'we think we'll have it fixed in four hours' thing if there wasn't an outage in Quincy too (not yet done, earlier timing, projected time to fix: four hours) which is probably consuming a certain fraction of the region's available engineers.

Took the colorquiz test thing again, and am feeling crankily amused by things like: "Depleted vitality has created an intolerance for any further stimulation, or demands on her resources. A feeling of powerlessness subjects her to agitation, irritation, and acute distress from which she tries to escape by refusing further direct participation. She confines herself to a cautious approach and a concealed determination to get her own way in the end." Nooooooo, really? Also, I'm overloaded, insecure, feel helpless, and need reassurance that I'm loved and can count on security and stability.

ibnfirnas and keshwyn have had thoughts about more ritual/magical work that might help me out. Need to ponder at the details a bit. Very good idea, but needs to be handled with care.

Tangentially, though, why do I have an impulse to offer gingersnaps to Wesir? Not that I object to the notion in the slightest, I like gingersnaps and I should offer Him something these days . . . . Will see how complicated that is to do or whether I should put off full-moon ritual until tomorrow so I have prep time.

Given that I doubt non-annoying internet will be restored any time soon, I will likely stop with the slow and flaky connection when I go off to do ritual (if I manage cookies tonight) and see if it's fixed tomorrow.

Still can't concentrate worth a damn.

Comments

[kaifu.livejournal.com]

I don't know that there's much I can do about most of this, but if it would be at all useful to have someone come help get the house into shape, that much I can do. I realize that having friends see house/help with house may be just as bad from a SAN-point perspective as the thought of showing it, but as I'm not a psych-type and I can't do anything about your neurochemistry and I don't know how to otherwise add to hoarded cope...I float the offer, and you may do with it as you will.

In any case, hugs and love for you and hope things get better.

[kiya]

At some point we will need to have people over to help us take out the rotted-out wall in the basement. I can't schedule this -- it depends on teinedreugan mostly -- but should you be willing and able to help with that it would be boonful.