Because I haven't whined enough today already

[kiya]

I have no cope.


Where has my cope gone? (Long time passing.)

Let's see.

Saturday night I had a massive emotional meltdown on artan_eter (mostly resolved, some points to discuss to keep it from happening again, flashpoint still potentially present due to lack of time and energy on both our points).

Sunday nothing bad happened, but I was in the company of people all day because it was D&D day and thus I didn't get much mental recovery space.

Monday I woke up and had a moderately complete freakout about some birthing classes I want to take, because they started Wednesday; also, need to call in my blood tests. Got that sorted out after some flailing. Puttered about, read most of the back archive of OOTS and was thus up too late, and wound up having a massive sexual assault flashback aftermath trigger-state due to the gentle interventions of some juvenile rape apologist calling herself a radical feminist.

Tuesday I did not take a mental health day from going to the shrink, for all that I was tempted to do so, and wound up in tears for I think the first time in the year and a half plus I've been seeing her. Spent the day in a state of sufficient mental frailty that having artan_eter go to tai chi class reduced me to helpless tears and I snapped at teinedreugan in the car when I finally got to actually go home.

Wednesday was mostly quiet, up until I had to call the woman teaching the class to see if her voicemail message confirmed none of her clients had gone into labor today and she actually answered, reducing me to flailing, embarassed incoherence. And teinedreugan wasn't available to attend the class with me, so I was on my own and obviously the total weirdo there (coming out as religious, poly, and clinically depressed in my intro because I can't do childbirth prep without this being in the soup made that extremely clear).

Today was expected to be quiet until I went to the breastfeeding class with whispercricket, up until the contractors showed up at 9am (a point at which I had just managed to get to sleep) to put insulation in the attic. Well, whoops. ("Call me if there are any problems." "... ... ... I'm awake. Consider yourself called.") Also, whispercricket's car hates me and I think I just doubled the amount of Tylenol I've taken during the pregnancy. teinedreugan and suzimoses took one look at me when I got home and were Quite Clear that I was Unhappy.

Tomorrow I get to go have blood tests run, because otherwise there won't be any way they'd have a chance to get results in before next midwife appointment.

Whee.

Comments

[nex0s.livejournal.com]

FWIW: I spent most of week 34 sobbing my eyes out every day.

*sympathy*

N.

[tendyl.livejournal.com]

Oh yeah that *HUG* I remember going through huge emotional swings during the last month. I wish I could help - I just remember Miles going out several times and getting me 'Beef Satay' because it was comfort food and stopped me from crying.

[heleninwales.livejournal.com]

When I was going to ante-natal classes (eons ago now, of course) there were some women there who were serene and glowig with health and I hated them!

My first pregnancy was somewhat emotionally fraught, to say the least.

*sends sympathetic thoughts*

[autumnesquirrel.livejournal.com]

Your head is a busy place, as is your life. Goodness. I think I would be spending as much time as possible eating comfort food while reading comfort books while covered in cats and stuffed animals and other comforting furry mammals as available.

I had blood tests today. I have some platelets.

I hope things settle down a bit for you soon. Operation: build new life form takes enough energy as it is.

[briar_pipe]

*sends good vibes*

Btw? There's always at least 2 weirdos in every cb class, according to the maternal unit who knows such things (mostly because she was always one of the two). The other one's probably hiding. ^_^

[meranthi.livejournal.com]

*HUGHUGHUG* I spent a lot of time flailing and crying in my final trimester as thastygliax can attest. *HUG*

[thastygliax.livejournal.com]

*HUG*

Speaking as a parent, kids are worth all the trials of creating and raising them. (If they weren't, meranthi and I never would have done it twice!) The next few months (until the birth, and for a while after) are going to test your limits in uncountable ways. But you're stronger than you think, and you have quite a few people to help hold you up as you go through all that. You'll get there.

*HUG*