Mental organisation.

[kiya]

I've sort of semi-declared the next two years to be a process of getting my life into an order I want it in, as well as setting patterns that I want to persist. (The Feri apprenticeship is part of this, and gives me a convenient timespan for the rest of the work, as well as providing a partial context for some of the work itself.)

So I'm trying to organise what I need to fit into these patterns so that I can get somewhere with them. Which means figuring out what I need to fit into these patterns.

• House stuff
  
  
  
  • Cleaning tasks -- bathroom, kitchen, vacuuming, cleaning rooms out
    
  • Maintenance tasks -- laundry, dishes, tidying, animal & plant care
    
  • Improvement tasks -- repairs, gardening, paint
    
  
  
• Religious stuff
  
  
  
  • Daily Feri work
    
  • Feri homework
    
  • Twice-monthly Kemetic ritual, plus etc.
    
  • Kemetic study -- independent work, middle_egyptian, possible classes
    
  
  
• Me stuff
  
  
  
  • Relationship maintenance
    
  • Look into online classes at NSCC -- hm, could take starting-and-running small business course this summer, that sounds like a good idea
    
  • Groundwork for small business
    
  • Regular writing time
    
  • Pursuit of sanity -- counselling?
    
  • Space for hobbies and development of same
    
  • Resume and part-time job seeking
    
  • Needful skill acquisition
    
  
  
• Whatever I've forgotten
  

I should probably not be trying to make this organised while I'm feeling this off and unable to think, but the pressure to get things sorted into orderliness is getting overwhelming, so I need to do something about it.

Aside from feeling completely incapable of doing something about it, that is.

It's time to grow up fixed. Damnit.

Truth, with all its far out schemes,
Lets time decide what it should mean;
It's not the time but just the dreams that die.
And sometimes when the room is still,
Time with so much truth to kill,
Leaves you by the window sill so tied
Without a wing, to take you high,
Without a clue to tell you why.

I should think about making that "Without these songs I make no sense" CD that anu3bis gave me the idea for. This would have to go on it.

Comments

[keshwyn]

I know you have (had?) problems scheduling yourself, but may I suggest you try to work out some sort of schedule you think you'd be comfortable with? I know I get more done when I think when I go to bed, "Tomorrow, I will do X and Y, in that order, and Z if I get done sooner than I think I will." It gives me a structure to build around.

Feel free to put this in with the kitty litter if it's useless.

[kiya]

That's sort of what I'm working out how to do. I think I want to have my head set up in a way that means I'll say things like, "Okay, it's Monday; that means bathroom maintenance cleaning" and go clean the sink or something like that.

I went to bed last night intending to install the new OSX patches first thing. So when I got up, I patched machine, and then did other chores while it was doing that, like dealing with boxes and laundry and hauling around twenty gallons of water. I also went to bed last night informing myself that I would have yoghurt today, and I have it out, though I haven't eaten it yet.

On becoming organised

[ailbhe]

... have you tried flylady? It's hard to stomach, but if you can bear the, um, overlying ethos, the underlying system is excellent. It has transformed my life - I can now do the stuff I need to do, like have a nice house and garden all the time without much effort, and have the time and energy to do the stuff I want to do, like spend a day in the park with my baby.

It doesn't work overnight, but, like weight-loss diets, that's *why* it works.

Re: On becoming organised

[larksdream]

I was about to post the exact same comment. I just tune out the Good Christian Republican bits; the actual content is really good.

Re: On becoming organised

[kiya]

I've heard of it; mostly what I've heard of it is people who basically discarded not only the ethos but large portions of the procedure because they weren't working for them.

I was considering looking into it, but mostly I think of looking into it at times when I can tell that doing that sort of looking into things is me making excuses for getting things done. So I've done the things that need done instead.

I should look into it as a thing that needs done, rather than as a displacement activity.

[larksdream]

BTW, Pete will likely be coming up in a week and a half. Maybe you can schedule him for some "improvement tasks". *g* And I like gardening! Work party!

[kiya]

Will he? Maybe we can demolish this fucking staircase and build a new one then. (It's bothering me at the moment.)

[angie-the-red.livejournal.com]

Do you mind if I (and my other journal irishrose1) friend you? I found you from multiplicity, where I was pointed to your wonderful essay, posted at Astrea, on being the Hydra. It very much moved me, as it tapped into exactly the way I've been feeling for so long. My journey of discovery is just beginning (ok, so I'm a *seriously* late bloomer), much of it has just been in the last year or so. (What can I say, I'm good at denial!)

Just thought I would be polite and ask first!

[kiya]

Goodness, Astrea just sent me the notification that they got around to getting that up on the web. :) That was fast.

No problem with friendsing. I'm really glad the essay was useful to you.

[angie-the-red.livejournal.com]

It was beyond useful. It was almost a blissful finding. To find something that so adeptly described what I was feeling. It's the ols, "there's someone who understands!" It's place to point to, that I can show others how and what I feel.

Bliss!