[woo] Self-notes, mostly

[kiya]

Sitting practice and prayer for alignment: 12 minutes. Better.


Figure out if you want to incorporate Tarot into regular practice. Would probably be worth finding an acceptable Egyptian-themed deck somewhere along the way; should also finish designing the one that's rattling around in the head. Perhaps also designing an appropriate spread.

Not sure this deck and I quite grok each other. Not sure where decks I get on with better are. Consistently seem to get this one upside-down. Or perhaps not; who knows?

Dealing with broodiness and the Warming Cauldron situation and its background and the Three of Swords. . .

Four of Cups (Opportunity, Change): look at things more simply, child's perspective. (Sticky one? Nimue? Do I know how to contact Her, anyway?) / Overload, choice of path, finding the sought goal.

The Universe (Totality, Wholeness): tremendous action, acceptance, gains; hard work accomplishes results that are invisible once achieved. / Confusion, irrationality, bewilderment.

Five of Cups (Distance, Ether): cosmic connection, not understood, detached, other worlds. / Ball and chain. Melancholia. Missing. Lack of belonging.

Two of Coins (Cryptic, Mysterious): Lack of substance. / Seeing the truth, staying out of things that need to be "fixed".

Knight of Swords (reversed) (Intent, Hunger): Melodrama. / Romantic. Creative.

Ten of Wands (Misery, Torment): Indulging in misery. Weighed down. / Stop allowing taking-advantage.

King of Swords (reversed) (Domination, Mastery): Abuse of power. Overwhelmed with lost purpose. Empty in success. / Mastering talents will bring wealth. Respected as self.

Ace of Wands (Success, Rule): Success is inevitable, stand firm, powerful decisions for the future. / Throwing money away. Wheel-spinning. Be true.

Wheel of Fortune (reversed) (Cycle, Fate): Living in the past. Unproductive. / Evolving. Synthesis. Creation.

Six of Coins (Gifts, Bounty): Unexpected gains. Surprising positive turn of events. Charity. / World against me. Anger. No good to be found. Stinginess.

Originally laid out the other way around; learned that having more cards come out reversed than upright means deck probably upside down. But not sure about results. Either way seems plausible:

Upright interpretation: I'm overthinking, blocking myself with overintellectualism and, arguably, fretting; things are better than I think they are, after all the work I've put in, and I'm missing that because the changes aren't visible to me. I'm in a state of detachment and distance dealing with a lack of real something-or-other in this part of life (this does not seem consistent with things being whole on the crossing card); melodrama and angst are behind me, but the future continues weighed down with . . . stuff. (Perhaps the crossing card was an indication that the hard work needs to be put in to get to the place where things are settled, instead of that it's done?) I find myself purposeless and void within what other people see as success; I fear that I'm clinging to the past and what-was rather than accepting what is. Something will change in the future, giving me some sort of gift. Clarity, perhaps; that would be nice.

Invert interpretation: I'm stuck in overload, but it's possible that the goal is around here somewhere if I can put my hand on it; my state of confusion and loss is getting in the way of reaching that. I'm trapped, dissociated, I don't fit in or belong (okay, there's a dur for you), I'm pulling back from an unfixable problem. Things were healthy and romantic in the past; the future demands that I not be taken advantage of, that my goodwill from that past not be abused. I am coming to a place of centeredness but being profligate in my energy expenditures; I need to find the truth of myself. I am trying to find a synthesis of understanding, a potential turn by which all this works out, but the final outcome is defeat in detail.

Single card drawn to determine whether the upright or the invert interpretation is the ones I should be using: Temperance (Chemistry, Fusion). Need for flow. This deck has 'balance achieved through spiritual comprehension'.

I think that means 'Yes'.

Bugger.

Comments

[leanne-opaskar.livejournal.com]

Slightly off-topic, have you ever tried Brian Froud's fairy deck? It's not a traditional tarot deck, but I've found it far more useful than a traditional one.

[kiya]

No, I haven't; it looks pretty, though. I may pick it up and poke at it some to see if I can work with it. (Especially since I'm doing this Feri work . . .)

[leanne-opaskar.livejournal.com]

Even if it doesn't work well for you for readings, it's a darn pretty deck. I find it much easier to read than a conventional deck, partially because the fairies are more expressive to me than the traditional symbols of the tarot, and partially since it's really rather freeform. If I need to ask questions, I'll just draw one or three cards as simple answers to my questions. If I want an overview of Stuff, I just grab whatever cards come into my hand and look at what they tell me.

There are no real "suits" in the deck, although there are groupings. The groupings (Singers, nobles, helpers, challengers .... I'm probably leaving one out) don't seem to matter much, though I suspect that if you get large numbers of Singers, the universe is Trying To Tell You Something.

I find it easy to read because between the names and the pictures and a bit of intuition, I personally can grasp what it's saying without having to refer to the book. It might just be that it's easier for me to comprehend because the cards have personality, rather than the more abstracted images of a traditional tarot.

I tend to end up with lots of Challengers, and Luathas the Wild and the Singer of Transfiguration particularly like me. I like Silvanius, too, but he doesn't come up for me very often. *looks amused* meiczyslaw doesn't care for Luathas.

It works surprisingly well for me. Your mileage may vary, of course. But like I said, it sure is pretty.

[rainfallsautumn.livejournal.com]

Email me if you want to pick it up-- I have it, and while I think it's gorgeous, I just can't relate to it. Perhaps we can swap for something.

And it's weird, speaking of tarot decks... I have vaguely tarot-mediated communication with Netjer, and there's only one deck that will work for that for me, Ted Andrews' Animal Spirit deck, which I can't get to work in a normal, formal reading. I don't know why this is, other than that it is an extremely *practical* deck.

[artan]

I have a copy of it somewhere if you'd like to see it. I haven't used it for anything though, so can't really give a review. I was collecting Froud at the time and more bought it because it was shiny.

[annwyd.livejournal.com]

I can dig up and send you my Dragon Tarot deck if you want it, since I use my Vertigo Tarot pretty much exclusively, but I'm not sure that'd get along with you any better than whatever this one is.

[kiya]

I have that one. :)