Random notes from a scattered brain.

[kiya]

Woo content. Enter at own risk, be advised in advance that I probably sound starkers.


Tails.

I spent a large portion of trying to get to sleep with a severe dysmorphia. (Sort of like a dysphoria, only I can't spell 'dysphoria', and it's a shape issue.) I couldn't find my tail.

Actually, I was feeling sort of oddly griffin-shaped at the time, to the point of feeling the draft from the AC in two layers, the one that ruffled the fur of the back of my hand and the one that was cooling the bare skin. There are times that I really understand what it would be like to be a World of Darkness changeling.

My feet were too short, too, and my thighbones too long, but that was less disturbing than being unable to find my tail. Which was, I was quite sure, long, prehensile, and scaled -- more serpent-body than anything else. (Not serpent tail. Snakes' tails tend actually to be rather short.) I perplexed teinedreugan when he got up, a bit, by complaining that I couldn't find my tail. (I took hold of Arthur's, which had fur. That was wrong. Arthur didn't notice.)

Maybe I have an inner manticore.

Actually, at the moment I think I have a beak (I wasn't sure about that last night), or at least I have the wrong shape to my nose. Gnargh. I keep trying to look at it and going cross-eyed, which doesn't help much, because my Sight is none so hot.


Shamanism -- I think I was feeling more body-fluid than usual because of the conversation I was having with ibnfirnas and oneironaut before I went to sleep.

I ordered a copy of Etheric Anatomy recently, and sort of read-skimmed it last night. It's . . . interesting. I got it because I've been being nudged to study Feri, and since Feri's an oral tradition it's hard to get a good background without having a teacher. (There may be instruction in the Boston area soon. Have RSVPed for a possible basic class.) It's . . .

. . . okay, first reading. There were a few things that quirked me, but we'll see how that goes; I'm keeping in mind that it was written in the seventies, more or less, and the sort of gender-fluidity that I take as default wasn't necessarily a part of the available vision. I also at some point need to pick ibnfirnas's brain about ancient Hawai'ian notions of gender, after an offhand comment in there. But . . .

. . . okay, I know what the Three Souls of Feri are now. And I've seen two of them, regularly, when my Sight's running well. (I don't have very good Sight. I have excellent Grope; much of my experiential stuff runs better through touch-based perceptions.) Folks I was in college with may remember some occasional discussion of the anatomy of the aura -- the tight band, the one that's between a half inch and an inch from the skin, and then the larger nimbus? First two souls. The third one's apparently blessed hard to see.

And some of the stuff in EA got me into rambling about some of my not-quite-dysphoria things, which had ibnfirnas pointing out that in some places the stuff I was on about with my perceptions of my own gendering was traditional shamanic material. Which again has me lusting after lysana's Deep Woo trance classes, sigh.


Now that I've gotten this far I can't remember quite what I wanted to say about Ht-Hrw, though. I had this lovely rant about gender and stuff going, and I've completely lost it in the brainfuzz of decongestants. So it'll have to wait until I'm not stoned, as will the misc, 'cause that's all gone too.

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[sashajwolf.livejournal.com]

the tight band, the one that's between a half inch and an inch from the skin, and then the larger nimbus? First two souls. The third one's apparently blessed hard to see.

*intake of breath*

Good grief. That sounds exactly like the way I see them, which is distinctly different from the way any book I've ever come across has described them. I thought it was just me.

*goes off to Google*

Er, good grief. Yes. I conceptualise some of that differently, but it translates. Wow.

*wanders off slightly discombobulated*

[kiya]

I'm having a lot of that reaction to this book. It's fascinatingly aligned. I do need to study this formally rather than collect scraps . . .

Have I given you an interesting new line of investigation, or just a sudden Ugol's Law moment? :}

[sashajwolf.livejournal.com]

Oh, the former, definitely!

[linenoise.livejournal.com]

The few times I've been deep enough into Woo to have any contact at all with auras, it's been by Grope, not Sight. I have no Sight, at all. Despite being told by one person with fairly decent Sight that I had the largest aura zie had ever seen.

I never know if I believe any of that, because I seem to have so little access myself, but have too many friends who are otherwise people whose thoughts I find to be good say that it exists. Plus, I read Tarot. So I dunno.

All kinds of interesting to read about, though.

[halcyonrain.livejournal.com]

I have excellent Grope

I believe Jenett has also said she doesn't see but senses in other ways?

If you figure out that Hwt-Hrw thing let me know, that piqued my interest.

[kiya]

I seem to recall that Jen's strongest senses are generally sound-based.

[kiya]

I'm not sure if what I just wrote is what I meant, but it's something.

[marykaykare.livejournal.com]

Hmmm. I don't seem to have Sight; I'm a touch-dominant person. But the way I feel people's auras isn't correctly described by Grope cause I don't do it with hands but with whole body. There are people who make me try very hard to curl up in a fetal position. They aren't bad, they're miserable and tense and broadcasting too loud -- uh, their aura's too big? Can't be around them.

MKK