Cognitively Dissonised

[kiya]

I don't know if I've talked about my cousin Nate before in my journal. I know I've mentioned him elsewhere, but not here.

I hadn't talked to Nate for years, really, before a couple Christmases ago. We wound up sitting in my father's dining room hanging out and chatting then, and had some really great conversation -- coming from completely different places, we have a lot of the same ways of going about life.

He's a musician -- hip-hop/rap artist. He put out his first album recently, gave everyone in the family a copy. I hadn't gotten around to listening to it before earlier today, when I was ripping stuff out of the "I" section of the CD collection, said, "What the hell," and pulled the whole album onto my hard drive.

So I started listening to it.

And it . . . sounds like my cousin.

This shouldn't give me the jolt it does. I think it's like papersky's "It's a real book, with pages and everything" feeling. That's my cousin Nate on this CD. I mean, it sounds like him. Chasing his dream, succeeding -- I googled on his handle and album name and found this incredible review cached on google. Coming out of his personal mess and damn, this is good stuff. And definitely my cousin.

I hope coming out of my personal mess comes up with stuff this good. Jazzy, rhythmic, smooth, and my cousin.

I'm writing. Not posting my word counts because they're pathetic, but I'm writing. Trying to recover from my personal mess, chase my dream, come up with the good stuff.

Maybe Nate will inspire me.

Comments

[the-real-diana.livejournal.com]

That is so awesome. I'm sure you will reach your dream, if anyone will, it will be you!!! I used to be afraid of taking the risks, b/c everyone around me was, now I'm like, what the Hell, give it a try! Only with the big risks come the big rewards. I risked a lot coming out here, marrying someone I'd only really had a long distance relationship with, randomly, but ultimately those are the decisions I'm most happy that I made.

A Billy Joel song came on my iTunes, it reminds me of you!

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[kiya]

And I was listening to my iPod earlier while brooksmoses was in the post office, and it played the Africa song, and I thought of you. :}

The trick is knowing which hands to make the big bets on and which hands to fold, eh? *pondering her life a lot that way lately*

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[the-real-diana.livejournal.com]

Well, for me I honestly give everything a chance, and take every risk I can. Yeah some of them don't work out, but the ones that do make up for the ones that don't. So go for it! :)