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I don't even know.
It's not the pain, or at least not just the pain; I've gotten enough sleep the last couple of days that I've been mostly managing that.
The fact that KJ is responding to FM's arrival with a standard sibling regression that is manifesting almost entirely in wanting to nurse constantly is part of it.
I am a tangled-up mess of complicated, and dealing with people is even more complicated.
I seriously spent the afternoon sitting in a dark room because it was the most calming thing I could come up with to do. "Turn your thoughts away from cold, unfeeling light."
I don't even know if I make any damn sense. I'm too tired to cry.
It's not the pain, or at least not just the pain; I've gotten enough sleep the last couple of days that I've been mostly managing that.
The fact that KJ is responding to FM's arrival with a standard sibling regression that is manifesting almost entirely in wanting to nurse constantly is part of it.
I am a tangled-up mess of complicated, and dealing with people is even more complicated.
I seriously spent the afternoon sitting in a dark room because it was the most calming thing I could come up with to do. "Turn your thoughts away from cold, unfeeling light."
I don't even know if I make any damn sense. I'm too tired to cry.
