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My brother's having a colonoscopy at the end of the month to make a guess as to whether he's got Crohn's or Ulcerative Colitis or A Need For Increasingly Invasive Tests. He's losing weight pretty rapidly at the moment, and I'm awfully worried about him. (He doesn't exactly have a weight cushion to lose any more than I do.) My brother is a damn cool guy, who's having a wicked bad time of it right now.
Compared to inexplicable, painful degenerative digestive disorders which aren't responding to medication and dietary modification, my own angst seems a little petty. But I still have it; I'm running out of any capability to deal gracefully with long-distance-relationshipness, and it's starting to scare the hell out of me. I don't particularly want to lose my grip or my family. . . .
I feel awfully flattened. Part of this is a depressive phase; I can feel it in the profound lethargy. It's not as bad a hypersomnia as I got before I went on the vitamins, but it's still notable.![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
teinedreugan and I are thinking about a movie tomorrow, and there's gaming Saturday, and maybe that'll help. Or at least drown out the greyness of the call to sleep, to just put a pillow over my head and shut everything else out.
Compared to inexplicable, painful degenerative digestive disorders which aren't responding to medication and dietary modification, my own angst seems a little petty. But I still have it; I'm running out of any capability to deal gracefully with long-distance-relationshipness, and it's starting to scare the hell out of me. I don't particularly want to lose my grip or my family. . . .
I feel awfully flattened. Part of this is a depressive phase; I can feel it in the profound lethargy. It's not as bad a hypersomnia as I got before I went on the vitamins, but it's still notable.
teinedreugan and I are thinking about a movie tomorrow, and there's gaming Saturday, and maybe that'll help. Or at least drown out the greyness of the call to sleep, to just put a pillow over my head and shut everything else out.