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I used the phrase "politically correct" in an argument semi-seriously.
*sigh* And onwards.
I would be able to consider "abstinence is the only 100% effective whatever" as much more true if I hadn't been sexually assaulted at the age of fourteen. (Summer after freshman year, for those of you who knew me then or met me soon after. *) And what really would have helped me in that situation was being able to admit that there were things that I wanted and bloody well talk about them, rather than try to deal with the universe as if I had no wants. Because I was too young to have wants, you see. Sexual wants are for grown-ups -- including, I learned the hard way, wanting to say "No".
It's interesting to think about this from that perspective: I was socialised to think of sexuality as something that would happen when I was older, which meant that when it came at me faster than I could deal, I cracked under the strain of it. I don't deal with rapid deltas at all well in general, and there was too much there for me to deal.
Two years broken. Two years that I was a strange, dissociated, vacant shell.
*discontinuity*, like a Niven story. Here be Kzinti.
* There's a story about me and Shayna involving this, possibly enlightening for folks who knew us both at RM.
*sigh* And onwards.
I would be able to consider "abstinence is the only 100% effective whatever" as much more true if I hadn't been sexually assaulted at the age of fourteen. (Summer after freshman year, for those of you who knew me then or met me soon after. *) And what really would have helped me in that situation was being able to admit that there were things that I wanted and bloody well talk about them, rather than try to deal with the universe as if I had no wants. Because I was too young to have wants, you see. Sexual wants are for grown-ups -- including, I learned the hard way, wanting to say "No".
It's interesting to think about this from that perspective: I was socialised to think of sexuality as something that would happen when I was older, which meant that when it came at me faster than I could deal, I cracked under the strain of it. I don't deal with rapid deltas at all well in general, and there was too much there for me to deal.
Two years broken. Two years that I was a strange, dissociated, vacant shell.
*discontinuity*, like a Niven story. Here be Kzinti.
* There's a story about me and Shayna involving this, possibly enlightening for folks who knew us both at RM.
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