Brooding.

[kiya]

So every so often I see people on my list post electronic rune-casting results. Earlier it was niankhsekhmet; I decided that I'd have a look at it. (Really I ought to pull one of my decks and do a serious tarot reading; I don't do divination often, but every so often it's a good idea. Sigh. Add that to the list of things to flake out on.)


Your Name: Kiya
Your Date of Birth: 02/03/78
Your Question or Information: [relationship stress stuff, slightly elided for relevant folks' privacy's sake]

Past Uruz - Used to create change, healing, vitality, strength, to boost energy of magickal work.

Present Wunjo - Joy, happiness, love, fulfillment in career and home life, the icing on the cake.

Future Mannaz - Cooperation, teamwork, collaboration, help and aid from others, beginning new projects, especially with others.

Cast the runes here:
Rune Caster

Cheerful, isn't it? All of that joy and fulfillment.

Past . . . I can see the work that got put in, trying to make changes, form useful bonds, repair hurt. That one doesn't worry me.

In the present, I'm living isolated in my own head. It's messing with teinedreugan, who's usually unflappable. It's not helping matters any with brooksmoses, either. (The fact that various other pieces of my life are unpleasantly stalled due to other people dropping the ball doesn't help, either, because I need to make progress. Of course, the fact that some parts of me are using that as an excuse to not get stuff done I need to do that has nothing to do with those things sets me up for the usual self-sabotage.) I'm hoping that I'll navigate through all of the recent stuff that I'm trying to juggle in a way that will cause me to have fulfilling career in addition to my home life, but I'm not there yet; I can see that as the current challenge. (And I think They've stopped giving me homework assignments at least until I learn to juggle all this.)

The future? Teamwork, collaboration, starting new projects with others?

From here I see uncertainty, lots and lots of uncertainty. I'm dealing with all sorts of personalised angst and moodiness about long-term commitments and desires and rituals and . . . stuff . . . and I can't get anywhere on fixing it and getting it out of my head. We're not dealing with it badly, at least not yet, but the "new project" that makes sense as a response to the actual question I posited at this thing is . . . not . . . currently plausible.

If I were in a better state of mind I could look at this as saying, "Okay, things'll work out all right, you'll get to where you need to be within the readable future, the stuff that's hurting you can be addressed." The best I can do right now is go all logic-skeptic and doubt the efficacy of electronic divinations in general, because if I read this straight I wind up going a little strange around the edges, and not in the good way.

Mostly I feel bad with how I'm interacting with teinedreugan lately, because I've been so in-wound that our relationship is suffering for it. I don't know how to fix it; I feel like I'm trying to do damage control on this little leaking trickle of isfet that's trying to wear away bits of my ability to be Real, and I don't know how to be in ma'at anymore. I don't know how to connect, that fundamental ma'at thing, and for someone whose connections are essential to her self . . . that's getting into the majorly fucked up territory.

Which is . . . sort of horrible to admit. Enough so that I'm thinking of locking this entry, but I won't, because that's . . . not owning up to it. I'm realising the muscles in my jaw are strained again, from tension, from having too much to do, from being wound up too tight. I should do Rite to recenter; I should also do Rite to talk to Anpw and Wepwawet and say, "'Scuse me. I need a coffee break, okay? Or something, since I don't drink coffee. Mental health day, I gotta take a mental health day."

I was all right a day or two ago, when Bast was having me dance. Perhaps I should do that again. Tomorrow.


In other news, over the last three days I've written section 117, and I'm completely and utterly stumped about 118. Sigh. Maybe I can talk at oneironaut until it makes sense sometime when gtst's awake. I think I know which characters it needs to be, but no clue what they're doing.

. . . yeah, if I stay up any longer I'm going to go nuts. Bed.

Hah! Hah! Hah! at the changer. Somebody's gonna make it right, are they? Hah!

Comments

Electronic Divination

[joyful-storm.livejournal.com]

I have to say, I've had results with this that are about as eerily accurate as my physical tool divinations.

Don't see why not. . . if you focus on the energy of the question strongly enough, mediating it into an energy-driven and manipulating device rather than paper or stone seems like it would work possibly better, though there's that whole subconscious mixing up element that gets lost.

Just my 2 cents.

*hugs* I'm in an ugly mood loop myself recently. . . sympathy & support.

[mindways]

*hug*

The best I can do right now is go all logic-skeptic and doubt the efficacy of electronic divinations in general

It's been my observation that the effectiveness of different types of divination vary for a given individual - both in broad type (Tarot vs. runes vs. etc), in instance (which Tarot deck one is using). and in form (which Tarot spread is being used). Things which work well for some people just don't work well for others, and vice versa.

I wouldn't be surprised if medium (physical use vs. electronic use vs. conceptual use, etc) were another variable in there, though it's not something I've looked at much.

It seems to me to be a good idea to take the results of divinations with a very large grain of salt when it's via a combination of type/instance/form that the person doing the divining doesn't have an established track record with. The odds of it being mostly accurate are unknown....and even if it's 100% accurate, the odds of it being mostly *certain* are difficult to say...and even if it's 100% accurate and 100% certain, it may express itself in a strange way that's difficult to interpret. Particularly without experience in doing so.

*hug*

in a fit of, well,

[(Anonymous)]

being the sort of person whose runes are made from the branch of an oak tree with whom he's had a long term relationship,

Ur (Anglo-Saxon rune poem)
The aurochs is proud and has great horns;
it is a very savage beast and fights with its horns;
a great ranger of the moors, it is a creature of mettle.

Úr - Shower (Icelandic Rune Poem)
Lamentation of the clouds
and ruin of the hay-harvest
and abomination of the shepherd.

Wynn (AS rune poem)
Bliss he enjoys who knows not suffering, sorrow nor anxiety,
and has prosperity and happiness and a good enough house.

Madhr (Old Norse rune poem)
Man is an augmentation of the dust;
great is the claw of the hawk.

"Man is the augmentation of dust/mighty is the talon-span of the hawk", in the more poetical translation.

Madr - Man (Icelandic)
Delight of man
and augmentation of the earth
and adorner of ships.

Mann (Anglo-Saxon)
The joyous man is dear to his kinsmen;
yet every man is doomed to fail his fellow,
since the Lord by his decree will commit the vile carrion to the earth.


Seven nights, on the steed of terror, and there is no getting the grimness out of the runes.

-- Graydon