I'm losing my therapist

I've known this was coming for a while; the service that connected me to him pays poorly and is plagued with constant technical difficulties, so he got a new job.

Today was supposed to be our second-to-last session, so of course the technical difficulties meant it didn't happen, and I actually coulda really used it. So, argh.

Which has got me going back to PT's therapist lists, which I have literally never gotten any response to via email, so I'm going to have to actually call people in case it's that email doesn't fucking work for this shit. Because the online service is theoretically great, and it did connect me up well, but ... the technical frustrations are just so bad. So so bad.

I am too tired to be plotting "and tomorrow will be the day of all the phone calls". Which is why I woulda liked to talk to my nice shrink today.

So, y'know. Fuckit. [stomping around kicking things]