The rest of life.

Did ritual last night. It's fascinating to me how the ritual purification works to slough off a lot of the grime of whatever's bothering me; I have a clean psyche for at least a little while. Somewhere in here there will be a thought about breathing (as in Feri practice) and the processing of scent in the Kemetic sense as the presence of Netjer. I wonder if I've got the beginning of a notion for a kala ritual in here somewhere.

I know part of what I need to do for the orixa offering I need to make; I need to get a white carnation and let it sit in water I've tinted with blue food colouring for a bit, and give that to Yemaya. I still have no idea what I need to offer Olokun, but the flower thing feels right. Need to figure this out at latest by when erispope visits. And get food colouring.

I'm trying to figure out how I'm going to deal with this upcoming weekend. I'm sure I'll dredge up the strength from somewhere; I generally do. I don't want to put too much into faking it; gods know that'll unwind me. (*hugs keshwyn*) I'm better today than I've been in a while, but I'm still feeling the world is a bit too much for me to face.

I think I want to make popcorn and watch a movie. I haven't done that in a while.

Also, with some relief as it's been a very long time: 4451371 words today.